Meet the Stuarts........

Hello everyone!! We are Nick and Sherydon(Sheridan)Stuart!! We have been married for 2 1/2 years. We found out about 9 months after we were married that I have endomitriosis and that we may never have children of our own. I was devastated. I can remember playing with my dolls when i was little and wanting to be a mom!! I have always wanted to know how it felt to be pregnant, to feel your child grow and move inside you, to know that love that so many mothers talk about, to be able to share those precious moments with Nick! At first, I felt like i wasn't much of a woman if I coulnd't help make a family. Then what was I to do? I will NEVER adopt, was my attitude. My mom and dad tease and say that when my dad look at her, she got pregnant. Then she would say things like, "you can always adopt." That phrase would make me so livid. How insensitive! You've never had to wonder if you'll be a mother. I started out very bitter! I even told Nick that I would understand if he wanted a divorce. Who would want a woman that couldn't give them children? I know i wouldn't if i was a man. I felt like my self worth went right down the toilet. Meanwhile, friends around me are getting pregnant, teenagers are getting prenant. A cousin that didn't even want a child got pregnant and always complained about being fat and getting stretch marks. I was in a whirlwind of anger. I couldn't even stand to look at a pregnant woman. Bitter, party of 1!!
As time has gone on, Nick and I took the steps to go through the temple. With that came many prayers from me and family to have my heart softened. Who wants to be angry and bitter? I surely don't, but it fit me well!! Through prayers and faith I have come to understand why the Lord has given us adoption. What beautiful stories of love and sacrafice. I can't imagine how hard it would be on either end. All I know is that i want to be a mother. That's the profession that i long for. To wipe away tears, to kiss boo boo's, to laugh and play with, to cry and worry over, to brag about, to be apart of the mommy group and so on! Every single one of you know EXACTLY what im talking about. I know now with all of my heart that regardless of how I become a mother, I will take complete advantage and love a child with all of my heart.
Nick and I just had our 2nd IUI on June 29 and so the saying goes....its the waiting game now.
Im so excited to find a site where there is someone who is in the same place that Nick and I are. Its just so comforting to know that your not alone!! Thanks to all of you who have shared your stories!!
Here is a parable about being a able to have a baby yourself or choosing adoption! Hope you enjoy!! Sorry this is a long post!!
A trip to Australia
Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it's a wonderful place, you've read many guide-books and feel certain you're ready to go. Everyone you know has traveled there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you can look forward to being pampered on the trip. So you go to the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems there is no seat for you; you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait --- and wait --- and wait. Flights to Australia continue to come and go. People say silly things like, "Relax. You'll get on a flight soon." Other people actually get on a plane and then cancel their trip, to which you cry, "It's no fair!" After a long time the ticket agent tells you, "I'm sorry, we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat." "By BOAT!" you say. "Going by boat will take a very long time and it costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane." So you go home and think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat. It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends and family have flown back and forth to Australia two or three more times, marveling about each trip. Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. It is more exquisite than you ever imagined, and the beauty is magnified by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during your voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air. People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, but you are able to travel only once, perhaps twice. Some say things like, "Oh, be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible; traveling by sea is so easy." You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know God blessed you with a special appreciation of Australia, and the beauty of Australia is not in the way you get there, but in the place itself.